This moment right here. Being pregnant with our sweet rainbow baby brings me such a joy that it could ONLY be created by God himself. I am so in love with this family that we created, both in heaven and here Earth side. If I could bundle up my emotions and express to you all of my feelings into this one blog post, it would end up being a novel. Losing our twin boys was, without a doubt, the hardest moment in our lives but what sweet sweet love Jesus has for us to give us a rainbow in the middle of our storm. How incredible is He to never give up on us, to have a perfect plan for our lives. I told myself that before I turned 24, I would be married with about three kids. How miraculous that it came true. I’m a mama to three, not in the way I had expected it to be but in a way that God knew it would be. His way hasn’t been the easiest ON me but it’s the best FOR me. After losing my babies I thought I would have a heart of coal but oh how opposite that came to be. MY heart is FILLED with the love of the Holy Spirit. I look at things more beautiful than I did before, brighter than I did before. It took some time, these feelings didn’t happen overnight by any means. I had to walk through a valley of darkness, hand in hand with the devil himself to get to the top of the mountain where I currently reside. This rocky path to becoming a mother was HARD. The moments of complete defeat and isolation smothered me. I was certain that God forgot about me, forgot about my dreams of becoming a mother. He KNEW the kind of mother I needed to be and knew what it had to take to get me there. HE answered prayers I didn’t even know I had.
Thank you Jesus for all the moments it took to get me right here. The good, the bad, the heartbreaking….just Thank you for loving me the way that you do. Thank you for my husband Wyatt and our heavenly boys , Asa and Armie and for our rainbow baby. I LOVE this family of mine.
BIG THANK YOU to Winsome + Wright for always capturing the sweetest moments of my life. I love our friendship more than words.
Meet Alena, she’s quickly becoming one of my favorites. This girl brings out something inside of me that I normally keep hidden from most people. I only know of three other people that can do that. My boyfriend, my late brother, and my friend Hannah. Her spirit is so contagious. She’s uplifting and I really need someone like that in my life right now. Her sense of style is so vibrant just like her personality. Our journey together is already off to a fabulous start. Our unique styles sync really well together. She’s her own person and so am I. We’re original. No copy-cats over here. I just enjoy her company. Take a look at her one-of-a-kind style on her blog at ModaPrints.com. Picking which photos to share with you all was the hardest thing to do. We had so many incredible shots taken in downtown Denver. I have nothing else to say so I’ll let our pictures do all the talking.
We started dating on March 4th, 2009. (5.5 years ago, ca-razy!)
Said our “I loves you’s” two weeks later. (Hey, we obviously meant it.)
Our favorite T.V. show is Big Bang Theory.
Wyatt loves his mornings and I love my nights. Early bird + insomniac = true love
My biggest pet peeve about him is that he’s constantly do weird things with his mouth.
His biggest pet peeve about me is…he apparently can’t think of one right now. (mmm-hmm sure)
Wyatt’s a CLEAN FREAK and I, sadly, am the messy one.
Calling us dog lovers is an understatement.
Karissa- Optimistic Wyatt- Realistic
We’re completely opposite people down to the smallest things.
But our morals and values are identical.
He eats chicken & veggies all day long while I’m over here eating hot fries & chocolate strawberries.
I’m the funny one in this relationship. (He won’t like that one, but its true.)
He’s more scared of spiders than I am.
Steve Carrell is our favorite.
I sing to him in the car (totally off key) daily.
Wyatt has the best luck and I definitely don’t.
He taught me how to drive a stick shift in a black slug bug when we were 15 in the middle of no where.
We laugh more than we breathe.
Wyatt’s a Taurus and I’m a Virgo.
I still wear my promise ring that he gave me 4.5 years ago.
Our favorite thing to do is dinner and a movie.
Our nicknames are so embarrassingly cute. I dont even know why I’m typing this right now. We call each other Booger Sugar, or Sugar Booger. Oh gosh, I’m gonna regret that one.
He took me on a helicopter ride around our city and had “Prom?” in lights on the ground. (Spoiled? Yes.)
We’re each others best best friends and we love each other unconditionally.
Another fact, Aspen from Aspen Groen Media took these breathtaking photos. I adore them. She captured us impeccably. I can’t wait to look back, 80 years from now, and look at these photos and know exactly where we were at in our lives and in our relationship. He’s my best friend. I love him and I love these photos. Thank you Aspen. Check her stuff out —> Facebook | Website
These pictures mean a lot to me. I wanted to remember where I was at in my life when I was 20. I like ice-cream. I like going to the movies with Wyatt. I put cheese on everything. Naps keep me happy and I love to dress up. Even though I’m in my twenties (wuw…thats weird to say) I will always be a kid. This little girl inside will never want to grow up. I will say though, I think I’ve been through my fair share of battles. I’d like to think of myself as one tough cookie (mmm, cookies) because after much loss, I’m still here, standing tall… ok I’m wearing heels but whatever. I know my brother is looking down on me and thinking “Atta girl.” But to tell you the truth, its still so hard. I would want more than anything in this world to celebrate my 20th birthday with my brother, but that wasn’t part of plan I guess. In spirit, I know he’s here walking with me, everyday. I hope he sees how far I’ve come. I hope he knows that even though I’m trying to move on…I will always miss him, with every step I take. Looking back on my life I wanted to remember that even though my life was dark at times I still managed to smile and eat my ice-cream. I’m proud of myself. I did it. I’m doing it. Taking it day by day. Can’t wait to see what the next twenty years bring. Lots of recovery, happiness and life, I hope.
Whatever it is YOU’RE going through, always remember to smile and eat that ice-cream. Somebody loves you. I love you.
Before I go I want to give a huge thank you to Aspen from Aspen Groen Media for taking these uh-mazing pictures. She made my vision come to life and took all my stress away. That’s all I ever look for in a photographer and she nailed it. I have much more pictures with her coming up soon so stay tuned and while you’re at it go check out her blog Makeover with Aspen. Like her Facebook pages as well —> Photography | Blog Thank you Aspen. (Big hug here)
P.s. My birthday was August 23rd. Where are all my virgos at? Beyonce? Mother Teresa? Ladies, we rock.
I didn’t intend for this to be an outfit post. These were the first pictures messing with my new bad ass camera and they actually turned out decent. I wore this little get up to work and got lots of compliments. Pairing a dress over jeans will always be a fun thing for me. I’ll be doing this a lot since fall is quickly approaching. Well I’m back into blogging mode and I could not be more excited. This time around, I’ll be doing more than just outfit posts. Why? Because there’s so much more to me than just my clothes. I’m not exactly sure what that is yet, but just expect more lifestyle posts than normal. Thanks for following me on this journey for those that have still stuck around. Means the world.