Wyatt and I are having not just one baby but TWO! We cannot even believe it ourselves. We feel double blessed, double happy and double loved by God. 

Twins. We’re having twins. Two babies.

 I’m writing this in complete shock knowing that God blessed us with TWINS. I still feel like I’m in some sort of dream. Someone pinch me.

In our very first ultrasound, our doctor was very confident that there was just one baby in there. It looked like it to me according to the screen. One tiny healthy peanut growing at just 8 weeks old. Come to find out it’s very common for the other baby to be hiding behind it’s sibling. WHO KNEW! I’ll admit when we got pregnant I had this feeling that it could be twins. For those that don’t know, my brother has a set of identical twin girls and my dad has a cousin with twin girls as well. It KINDA SORTA runs in my family. I also felt like my symptoms were so much stronger than they should be. I was TOO fatigued and TOO sick. Why was this pregnancy hitting me so hard? I was also very self conscious about my weight gain as well. I was showing around my 9th week, thinking “Man, I am huge. I’m not supposed to be showing this quickly.”

We went into our second prenatal appointment just excited to see how our ONE baby was growing. It was supposed to be a quick little check up because our ultrasound with the Doctor that’s delivering our baby wasn’t for another week. I actually thought it was just more blood work until she tells me to lay down and squeezes the warm jelly on my stomach. She rolls the ultrasound thingy around on my stomach for not even 20 seconds and then stops. Wyatt and I both briefly saw two images on the screen and I was thinking “Hmm… Weird.” Then that’s when the ultrasound technician said, “Did your doctor tell you you’re having twins because it doesn’t say this on your chart?”

WHAT! WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY? 

Wyatt fell to the ground. I don’t even know what happened to him. One second he was standing up and the next he’s just on the floor. I was crying happy tears, clearly too excited to notice my husband was having a mental breakdown. We asked the poor ultrasound lady A THOUSAND times if she was sure. She showed us two tiny little bodies with arms and legs jumping around all over the place and proved to us that there was in fact two healthy babies growing inside of me. God is just too good. He must really have faith in our first time parenting skills. 

Funny story. My mom knew I would be pregnant with twins this entire time. A mothers instinct proves to be so strong. The very day we told my parents, it was Christmas and we were going out to a special restaurant in Manhattan to celebrate Jesus’s birthday and to celebrate the baby news. My mom had this lemon on her plate and I told her “Mom, the baby is the size of a lemon seed right now.” She picks out TWO lemon seeds, puts them in a napkin and slides them into her purse to savor the memory. She said “Two lemon seeds, TWO babies. I have a feeling.” Even after our first ultrasound when I told her we were just having one baby she said word for word “Nope, I still think it’s twins.” Well mom. You were so right. You’re always right.

I know this sounds a little cheesy but I do believe God has a big plan for each of us. He knowingly puts people in our lives for a reason and he also purposefully takes them away. 3 years ago, my brother passed away. Just 20 days later, my best friend also passed away. They were my two best friends that really shaped and molded me into who I am and in such a short amount of time they were taken away from me. After many difficult years filled with anger, depression and loss I came to realize God’s unbelievable love for me. It was only then that I was able to understand why God allowed them to go to heaven too soon. I don’t think it’s just a coincidence. I choose to believe these two babies will have a piece of my brother and a piece of my best friend within them. I know it in my heart. He took two and now he’s giving me two in such a beautiful way. The bible says: 

Lamentations 3:31 “For no one is cast off by the Lord forever.  Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love.” 

Unfailing. Forever. 

Thank you, thank you Jesus. 

A double thank you for a double gift. 

We are double happy.

With two heartbeats in my belly,

©Karissa Marie